Thursday, December 16, 2010

I'm back

Hello blog. I've missed you.

I've been suffering from writer's block. I guess. I think about my blog every day, and think of things I'd love to write, but then I don't. There are a couple of reasons for this.

A lot has been happening. I have about a million Lively updates, and the longer I wait, the more I have to write. So the task feels daunting, and I put it off.

The big reason I haven't written lately is that I am struggling. Some days are good, even great, and others overwhelm me. And that feels so personal, that I'm not always sure that I want to share it. But I'm not sure how to tell Lively's story without getting personal.

I've never been someone who keeps things extremely private, but certainly to a degree there are events, thoughts, feelings that I don't share with people I don't know well. A lot of people read my blog (maybe not anymore, because I've been away for awhile), and I don't want to censor myself for a particular friend or family member or coworker. There's no point in doing this if it's not authentic, I suppose. But I'm becoming more aware that what I want to write isn't really about Lively, but about my experience with Lively and Annie and Pete. And my experience, lately, feels almost too ugly to record. But I suppose I will. For all the world to read.

So continue to follow at your own risk. It's about to get personal.

(Well, not right now. I hope to post some Lively updates in the next few days.)

When Katie's son Lively was diagnosed with infantile spasms in February 2010 at 6 months old, she and her husband Pete were told, "You have a long road ahead of you." You can read more about her family's journey down that road at Highway Lively.

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