But I realized something recently. I'm in trouble. I'm fat and lazy and really in horrible shape. And, although this has been true for a VERY long time, now I'm starting to see it affecting my health. I strongly suspect that the next time I see a doctor, I'm going to get more than the standard "You need to lose weight!" lecture, but a handful of prescriptions as well.
So, my summer plans are evolving. I need to also do something to help me improve my condition. I need to exercise daily. Going out and walking the dog is good, but it's not enough. I recently purchased "The Biggest Loser" for Wii -- I plan to pull this out daily and do a workout. I don't expect to like it, but I hope that as I see an improvement in my performance, I'll find the impetus to continue.
Because, you see, what's happening to me cannot be allowed to continue. I see it spreading to my kids. I see how they too prefer to sit at the computer or playing with the phone than going outside and enjoying the fresh air and getting exercise. That shouldn't be the case for ANY child.
Hopefully, I'll find my energy. Hopefully, I'll be able to teach my 7 year old to ride his bike, running along side him to catch him when he falls. Hopefully, I'll be able to get my 5 year olds on a scooter and play a game of chase which has always been a favorite.
Because if I don't start taking care of myself, then my children are the ones who are made to suffer. And now, I think I found the motivation that's been lacking for oh, so long!
Ilene is a Stay-At-Home Mom living outside of Washington, DC with her husband, 7 year old son, 5 year old twins and a dog. The family learned the twins were both "on the spectrum" when they were 26 months old. They have both made such progress since then and parenting them, she feels, has made her a more effective parent in general.
Ilene blogs regularly at My Family's Experience With Autism, sharing whatever feels right at the time. Feel free to read the stories.