Saturday, October 29, 2011

My Idea of a Good Time

I spent last night in a hotel room five minutes away from home. 

It was a mental health decision based on my feeling entirely burned out.

Here's what went on:

I set up my laptop. Posted. Then promptly fell asleep for two hours. Upon waking did a meditation to music on my iPod. Then took a very long shower without feeling rushed.

Went to Whole Foods and bought a piece of pizza. The kind I like, not the kind everyone else likes. Brought it back to the room to have with my Trader Joe's Limeade. I considered wine, but knew it would put me to sleep and didn't want to spend all my "me" time sleeping.

Back to the room. E-mailed Carrie. Emailed Jan. Researched PANDAS (uninterrupted, and with a clear head) for two hours.

Called my husband.

Emailed Carrie again.

Watched two epsisodes of Sister Wives and felt better about myself. I could be married to Cody.

Did some more PANDAS research with Undercover Boss on in the background. Never had heard of the show before, but decided we should TIVO it. Read the O Magazine issue on "intuition" I'd been carrying around for months but hadn't had time to read cover to cover.

Went to sleep at 1:00AM.

Woke at 6:30 with nausea. Cursed Whole Foods pizza. It went away as quickly as it came. Forgave Whole Foods, went back to sleep. Woke up at 8:30.

Another meditation. Asking Seth what he needs. Got some answers.

Leisurely checked email.

Read more.

Checked out at 11:00, 22 hours after I left my family in my husband's capable hands.

All my problems aren't solved, but I'm in a much better position to deal with them.

I might have to make this a more regular thing.


Michelle O'Neil is author of the memoir Daughter of the Drunk at the Bar. She blogs at Full Soul Ahead! She has an 11 year old daughter on the autism spectrum and a nine year old son with PANDAS.


  1. Really tickled I sort of got to be a part of the whole thing, but back to you...
    Yes. A regular thing. And by regular I don't mean semi-regular.

  2. I've said it before and I'll say it again: you are my hero. I sat here reading your post and imagining myself in that place, feeling guilty and coping by sleeping for 22 hours straight and not taking advantage of it at all. I love that you did what you did without apology and your own desires in mind.
    I hope next time you get to do this without feeling so stressed before you go.