Thursday, May 5, 2011

Rewriting your Story

Once life drops a challenge like Autism , we realize that the story we were living in, has met with an unexpected  twist

In the minutes, that it takes the  psychologist  to tell us that our  child has autism, we  can find that our story is going to be completely different from that of our  friends.

That, in fact, we are going to be living in a completely different genre of stories

We search for those with stories like ours   

And we find them  

We tell them our story

And we  listen  to theirs

We give comfort

And we feel comforted

And that was the way it was with me

But as time passed, I saw that I could rewrite my story

Indeed it was critical to do so

I realized that the most important story that I will ever tell, is the one I tell myself.

About me and my life.

And that I am not just the central character of my life

But also the author

Its most important audience   

And the narrator

And so the story I started to write, has  become a story of gifts and gratitude and love

And not a story of loss and fear and guilt

And I  see my  child as different, even gifted

And have stopped seeing him as broken

I have come to  see the  difficulties of my  life

But am still deeply  aware of its essential goodness  

And I find that I am  not living in a sad story

Or even a second best story

And  that the  story that began so promisingly  with “once upon a time” does end  on a  “happily ever after”

Because this is my story  

And that is how I write .



K Floortime Lite Mama writes her story of her life with her 6 year old son and Autism at Floortime Lite Mama