Saturday, July 28, 2012

The Tao of Special Needs Parenting

"It is as we expected," the geneticist said to me, "your son has Prader Willi Syndrome."

And suddenly, like my new born infant, I too began a difficult new journey.

My son's birth was traumatic and frightening. It was as if someone had maliciously thrown me into the cold, deep end of the pool, knowing I could not swim.

Instinctively, I realized, that in order to survive, I needed to keep my body in a constant state of motion.

And although this survival technique of treading water did indeed save my life, after many years of thoughtless, continuous movement, I began to realize, I wasn't really getting anywhere. More importantly, I was starting to become fatigued and dispirited.

As a parent of a child diagnosed with PWS, I am accustomed to chaos.

It is not unusual for my son to experience unexpected surgeries, unwelcome lab results, unusual seizure activity, poor cognitive testing and additional diagnoses. I am not complaining since it is this unusually high level of stress that has enabled me to understand the true meaning of the word resiliency.

But the greatest difficulty I face amidst all this hardship and stress, is my inability to find a sense of peace.

How do I disassociate my son from his syndrome, seeing him as a delightful boy and not a devastating diagnosis?

How do I stop living in the past, reflecting on his traumatic birth?

How do I stop fearing the future, and what life will be like for him when I am gone?

How do I help my family and I to live in the now, happy and unaffected by what may lie around the next corner?

How do I quiet my mind?

In trying to answer these difficult questions, I have discovered that my spiritual path has somehow become fast-tracked. It is as if someone pressed the fast forward button, hurling my life forward at break-neck speed allowing me to ask those difficult life questions now, enabling me perhaps to quickly discover my one true path.

Perhaps not coincidentally, I stumbled upon the word Tao, a word Chinese philosophers use to describe this spiritual journey.

In Taoism, the object of spiritual practice is to harmonise one's will with Nature in order to achieve effortless action. This involves meditative and moral practices, focusing on the concept of virtue.

Can you coax your mind from its wandering
and keep to the original oneness?
Can you let your body become
supple as a newborn child's?
Can you cleanse your inner vision
until you see nothing but the light?
Can you love people and lead them
without imposing your will?
Can you deal with the most vital matters
by letting events take their course?
Can you step back from you own mind
and thus understand all things?


The Tao philosophy also embraces the concept of "The Interdependence of All Things'. Taoist philosophers determined that everything has its complementary opposite. More than this, they saw that everything can only be understood by comparing it to its opposite.

Day is only day in relation to night, cold only cold in relation to heat, and soft only soft in relation to hard. Looking deeper still, they realized that these relationships are in a constant state of flux: Day flows gradually into night and back again.

All things, then, are interdependent. By observing the processes of Nature, the Taoists say, we can come to some understanding about the meaning of our lives and about our place in the world.

A Zen Master will describe our minds as loud drunken monkeys while our Buddha-self can only whisper. The monkeys must be soothed into a quiet state to enable ourselves to hear.

Ironically, my "disabled" son has always seemed to possess an "abled" and enlightened spirit. He is immune to the sound of screeching thoughts. His kind and gentle nature is incongruous to the harsh and chaotic lifestyle that we lead. I can't help but wonder if this too holds some significance?

Are the answers to my questions buried somewhere beneath these opposing influences?

Do I impose my will, making extra appointments with therapists and specialists, or do I need to embrace Nick's gentle nature, release my fear, accept our life and just enjoy the time we share together?

Perhaps to help my son, I must allow him simply to be.


- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Lisa Peters shares her family adventures in special needs parenting at www.onalifelessperfect.blogspot.com. Come visit our blog to learn more about Prader Willi Syndrome, ADHD, Aspergers and our crazy life trying to find happiness amidst all the chaos.

16 comments:

  1. I agree that raising as special needs child can, and ideally is, fast-track spirituality! I really believe these kids are here to teach!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thanks Carrie, sometimes I feel like we are the Usain Bolt's of the parenting world!

    ReplyDelete
  3. As a person who practices Buddhist meditation techniques and mindfulness, I can appreciate your post on living in the moment. I've personal found that mindfulness helped me overcome my traumatic experiences with my two special needs daughters. Thanks for sharing your spiritual journey with us. Great post!

    ReplyDelete
  4. Thanks Tim, I am a relative newcomer to the practice of meditation but like you, I am finding some amazing benefits. Getting started was the difficult part but I purchased a few cd's and that seemed to help me alot. Have been immersing myself in readings of mindfulness, Tao, spiritualism etc and so far much of these teachings are resonating with me. Thank you for your comment, I am an admirer of your writing and the family journey you share with us.

    ReplyDelete
  5. There are various options to find such service providers but finding someone trustworthy with the great reputation and clean track record is a tricky task, for that you need to be a bit of prepared so that you are not duped by the swindle service providers. Considering such points, we have come in the market to assist you with all your requirements and to endow you with the best movers and packers in Ahmedabad nearby your location.

    Packers and Movers in Delhi

    Packers and Movers in Noida

    Packers and Movers in Faridabad

    Packers and Movers in Ghaziabad

    ReplyDelete
  6. Export5th Packers and Movers India to chase your dreams of any kind or as a student to get higher education or any other purpose, if yes then you need to get in touch with the right relocation service providers who could endow you with the complete range of services without any sort of hassle. Efforts to get in touch with someone who is able to match all your demands and all sufficient to help you with all your requirements in a fully comfortable manner.

    Packers and Movers Pune

    Packers and Movers Mumbai

    Packers and Movers Hyderabad

    Packers and Movers Bangalore

    ReplyDelete